Past Choices

I know we aren't supposed to look at the choices we have made in the past and feel guilty about them. We are supposed to learn and move forward. But sometimes it is hard to move forward when something happens and you know that if you had made a different choice in the past you would have been in a better situtation in the present. I am going to have to make a choice now that I should have made a long time ago. I am going to apply for a full-time job, so that I can help out here at home. It is going to be hard and I know that I will have to work to over come some feeling I know I will have about not being able to spend as much time with my grandchildren but I really feel it is a choice that I have to make right now. I hope my kids will understand and I hope I can find a job.